So since now's 1st March, I thought maybe i'll just start sharing my thoughts
with less than 24 hours to my doom's day
i don't know how i will react when i see my results.
but i hope that whether it is good or not, i will accept it
and make the best out of it.
hopefully i don't cry.
really hope.
ok, so i'll just remember this:
as soon as i get my results, i will just go off straight.
don't look at my results first. wait till i get out of the hall
then i shall open it when no one is around.
if not, just keep walking till i am out of the school.
wow, that somehow sounds like a covert ops. lol
this is the result of too much tv! >.<
ok, let's talk about something else
i'm currently jobless.
it's complicated story.
to make it simpler, i need a job.
but my mom only restrict me to having a job in my area.
which is like quite impossible since i think job opportunities
are available at central areas. or somewhere further away from my house.
anyway, i'm spending my time or rather wasting my time at home.
becoming more fat. or even more inactive.
but, i'm still volunteering myself at rc.
so that should be good enough right?
well, now that i committed myself to this volunteering thing,
i got myself into an event, and a part of the committee itself!
i admit i might be overwhelmed by all these since i just came back
and trying to fit right back in.
and to make matters interesting,
i am the secretary! like for the first time! i am the secretary!!! woo hoo!
anyway, i'm quite nervous and pressured that i would not make a good job out of it.
cos everyone else seems to know what they are doing and i'm not that good at secretary
even though i am a girl--stereotyping!! haha
argh! as time passes, i can't stop thinking about tmr.
it's really gonna be a big day for me
it's gonna determine my life
whether i can pick myself up and move on.
or i just dwell in those sadness and self pity.
i hope not the latter
i really hope i ca be positive about it.
i'm even looking at my own prelim results
so that i can get used to the bad marks.
but funny thing is,
the more i see those results
the more i think it will become my reality tmr!
shit! it's too late to regret anything.
hopefully i just don't do something irrational.
my family is supporting me
and reminding me that no matter what the result is,
accept it and they will always support me.
i love you, my dear family.
i might not say it out loud but deep inside,
i really cherish you all.
Got to go now.
need to keep thinking positive.
need to find positive.
huat ah!
jia you! hwaiting! <3 <3 <3
Lots of love,
Chubby Cat
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