i noe...
i have been disappointing u
again n again...
countless times...

but please...
b4 u accuse me of anything...
please find out the truth...
it really hurts when u just
wildly hurl accuses at me...

but it is my fault too...
cause i didn't say anything...
i juz kept quiet..

so now...
i understand...
i understand wat u want..
u want me to stay
at home d whole
day...
24 hours at home...

dun u noe dat it is boring?
i noe u do...
so y r u doing dis 2 me?
can't i juz hang out wif my frenz...
n have some fun wif them...

u wan me to juz rot at home?
is dat it?
u always have misunderstood me...
but i didn't sae it...
coz i noe...
i will never have a chance
to say it...

u think u r always rite..
n u always tink dat
wateva i do...
i alwaes have a hidden agenda...

dun u noe
dat my hart alwaes shattered
to pieces everytime u
always tink like dat...

i alwaes cry..
in d toilet...
while bathing...
so dat u won't c me crying...

u alwaes blame me...
blame me 4 being lazy..
blame me 4 being careless...
blame me 4 being inconsiderate...
blame me 4 bveing stupid
or not using my brain...
blame me 4 being such a useless daughter...

fine!
blame me 4 everytink...
u r alwaes right!
wateva i do,
u muz alwaes find mistakes in me...
u r so damn RIGHT!!!

u noe
sometimes i feel like
shouting back at u...
but no..
i dun tink i can...

it sux...
my heart is burning...
i feel so lost..at home...
im trying not to blast any
vulgarities...
but when i do,
let me apologise first...
coz i dunno when i will stop...

it seems weird...
everytink seems weird...
i still sleep late between
1 to 3am...
woke up 6 to 6.30am...
if not some1 wud either
pinch my ears,cheek,arm,legs...
or slap,pushed..
u noe d usual stuff..
sometimes im so used to it..
dat i juz continued sleeping...

but in d end..
i juz woke up n bathed...
coz my ears really r sensitive to
ppl's nagging n scolding...

damn..