i miss
flicking my lighter..
i miss
burning things..


wat am i going
2 do in dis boring
holidae??


i m alwaes
home alone...
hmm...
nothing to play
wif...
n juz reading books...
damn...


mondae(3/9)
had prefect meeting..
had to decorate
d board..
left at 1pm...


saw my
primary school
friend, suliana...
at her void deck...
i joined her...

we chatted...
she was smoking...
so i asked her
if she has a lighter...

she gave it to me...
n i kinda played wif it...
then she asked
if i wanted 2 smoke...

i rejected it
although i
felt like smoking..
i mean curiosity..
yea..


it was raining..
i waited 4 d rain
2 subside..

then i went home..
suliana's home
is near my home...
i alwaes
walked past her
house everytime
i walked to school..

holidaes can b boring...
but i m glad

dat i didin't

get 2 see dat

stupid face...

i ate 2 panda bearsnacks

4 lunch...
tuesdae(4/9)

damn...
i had a
NIGHTMARE
abt 'him'...


u dunno who im
talkin' abt?
check d 'about' sect...
see who i hate...
yea..


i dreamt
dat i saw him
lying on
d floor..
dead..

in a pool of blood...
but i can't rmb
if it was me
who killed him...


then i oso dunno
wat happened
n suddenly
d counsellor
came...

she was laughing
like a witch...
omg...


then i 4got
wat happened...
i woke up
coz my phone
was ringing...
i had set an
alarm clock...


2dae i m
goin 2 suntec...
wif mardi, shi yuan
n others...


at 1st
i felt like
not going
since siti
can't go...
but i went aniwae...

went to suntec
by mrt..
thruout d whole
journey,
i was quiet..
dunno y..
juz dun feel like
talking..

so i listened 2
my mp3...
then we reached
our destination..

then we walked...
n walked...
then we decided
2 have lunch 1st...
we decided 2 eat
at Pizza Hut...

we forked out
$9 each...
i was very full...

then we walked
around..
went to several shops...
then we went to arcade...
i spent $8 on d games...
all dat is left is $1...
haha..im broke..

then we went back
2 d mrt station...
on d way back..
saw jovin n jin wei...
well..they r couples...

we went 2
jurong point...
it was going 2 b 6pm..
went 2 macs..
ate ice cream..
left wif $0.40...

then my mum
called..
as if i was oredi going
home coz she was
oredi goin home
frm work...

so i told my frens
i got 2 go..
xiangyi ma'am
gave me a stitch stuff toy..
on behalf of other ma'ams...
THANK YOU MA'AMS!!!
met my mum...
went home wif her...

my mum bought
nasi lemak..
i had my bath
1st b4 my mum..
so i ate d nasi lemak
when my mum was bathing...

as i was still
full...
i put some rice
2 my mum's...
then i ate..
but i still can't finish it..
so i wrapped
it up...
n threw it away..

watched tv...
kinda tired..
read my book...
then i watched tv again...
watched csi...

then i listened
2 my mp3...
i closed my eyes...
my father
thought i had oredi
slept...
he switched off
d tv n lights...
then went 2 sleep..

i acted as if
i was sleeping...
but i cudn't sleep yet..
so i juz close my eyes
n listened 2 d songs..
n sang it in my heart...

then at around 1am
i tink..
i slept..