hi there...
so yesterdae..
i n my parents
went 2 ndp...

it was kinda fun
n boring..
bcoz there were
no fireworks...
but dat is ok coz
i've seen it b4...

then we waited
4 my bro
2 b dismissed at his camp...

then bought dinner...
nasi lemak...
then reached home...
asked my mum
where 2 put clothes
n she was like shouting
at me...
Is it wrong 2 ask?
then she began
her typical nagging...

then i was going
2 eat...
i was d last 1 2 eat...
then my bro
saw thread..
in his drink...
he wanted 2 take
a tissue frm
d kitchen roll..
then he was like
struggling with 1 hand
to pull d tissue roll...

then i was goin'
2 help him...
he said.."can u help me?"
in an angry way...
i was like..
hey, i was gonna help...
this is wat i deserve?
fine..i m unlucky..

then i watched tv
until 1am...
then slept in my room...
my bro was trying
2 wake me up..
but i juz ignore him...

then my mum
was like shouting...
she shouted dat if
i never wake up..
she will pinch me...
i juz continue sleeping...

then she came
n pinch me on
my right arm real hard...
ouch...it really hurts..
but i act as if i didn't...
i slowly drag myself
2 d bathroom...

i cried...
i was angry...
not 2 her...
but myself...
i pinch on my left arm
real hard...
is there a law
dat says u muz wake up
early in d morning at 6am??
i mean c'mon...
it's a weekend...
hello..weekend...
no school..
suppose 2 b a rest dae 4 me...

well after i bathed...
my nose was red...
i looked down so
dat she won't notice..

i ate 2 bread...
then i slept in
my room...
i looked at
d mark
dat my mum pinched...

it was kinda red..
i looked at d left arm...
n it was red too...

i acted as if
i was sleeping...
but actually
i was crying...
y muz she punch me??
y can't she take
a sharp knife n
stab me as many
times as she wants...
i won't blame her...
in fact i will thank her...
coz she has
released me from d
pain...

when my father
n my bro got home...
i did not talk much...
my bro wud talk 2 me...
or try 2 joke with me..
but i acted as if i was
busy studying...

whenever
i look at my right arm...
it hurts...
my heart hurts..
i tink dat i m
useless...
hopeless...
helpless..
stupid...

it pains me...
it really does...
my heart is in pain...
but i never die...
sometimes i wonder...
if i have a real heart...
d world is getting
darker 4 me...
i can see nothing...
i hope 2 see nothing...
coz it always hurts...

so when my mum
came back from her work...
she talked 2 me
as if nothing
had happened in d morning...
i was kinda disappointed..
i tried not 2 talk 2 her....
n she thought dat
i was not feeling well...

not feeling well huh?
well i guess u dun
noe me well
as ur daughter...
all u care is about money...
work...
dat is all u can tink of...
hey..i can give u money...
i can give u everytink...
i dun nid money...
it's not important 2 me...

well..dat is all i wan 2 post...
i nid 2 study 4 my maths test...
i nid 2 focus...
even though i can't...