wow...
on thursday,
it was around 10.15pm
i was watching tv
my mum was sleeping

then suddenly
the phone rang
i quickly ran for the phone
it was in my mum's room

i took it and
saw my brother's hp number
i quickly took the call
the conversation began

me:hello?
him:hello?atun eh?
i was surprised at a moment
because this is the first time
i heard his voice ever since he went
for ns 3 days ago including this day

me:huh?
him:atun eh?mama?
me:tak,ini atun...nanti kejap
atun kasi talipon kat mama
my mother was already awake...
she took the phone...
and talked to my brother...

then,they hung up...
my mum told me that he had swimming
he had accidentally gulped down some water
and ended up having difficulty breathing

i thought to myself
pity him
he must have suffered a lot
oh my...oh my....

then,i asked my mum
if he was the only one
who could not swim

my mum told me
that he said
there are also many
people who do not know..

haish..i feel like crying
but i tahan..
i am feeling lonely

no one to teach me
at home
no one to joke with
at home

no one to smile
at home
no one to scold
at home

i really miss him
a lot...
i hope when he comes back,
he will miss me too...

i hope that he has learn
at least something during the ns
now...
i am wondering
what he is doing now...

how he has been doing...
is there any unfairness...
if there are, i would really go there
until there is fairness....
even if it means to shout vulgarities
or kill the person

you must be thinking that
i am crazy or over-reacting or emo
but i am not...
mayb i m too
sensitive..
i cry again...