oh my god
now he is gone
he has gone away from home
for 2 weeks or more
i can't believe that he is gone so fast

i skipped school
just to see him off
i was sad that i was seeing him off

it was around 11.44 pm plus
we were waiting for a cab
i was sleepy
i dozed off in the cab

i remembered
two nights before this day
it was night time
i was crying
not because i was scolded or punished
but it was because i was scared

i was scared that he won't be able to be
by my side when i reallly need him
i remembered his words
a few days ago

"atun mesti tahu ni..
ini basic..u must remember
because it will help you a lot..
abang tak nak atun nanti
jadi macam kawan abang semua
dah pat jc, masih tak tau buat
dah tertanya-tanya"

i cried at those words
i was touched at how concern he was
i was really touched
i will never forget those words

i woke up and found
that we are still in the cab
heading to pasir ris interchange

when we reached there
we took a bus
it was damn hot
it was stuffy

we reached the jetty
i was sweating
but the wind made
me feel more comfy

we entered the ferry
i was talking to him
i felt like vomitting
because i don't like
the spray smell thingy

finally, we reached pulau tekong
he n i was separated
so i and my parents went on a short tour
it was quite boring

after that
we were in a multi purpose room
i saw him
he was sitting among some other people
who are the same age as him

all of them looked serious
and quiet
they were like robots
waiting for a commmand to be given

there was a brief talking,
oath taking ceremony
i nearly cried
they said the pledge
so firm and strong

i don't know if they mean
it from their heart
oh..oh..oh
why must this happen this year?

why not last year
or during last year's holiday?
why?why?tell me why...
i need an answer

an answer that will satisfy me
i know that it is a national service
which every man have to go through
but why must he be chosen this year?

i reflected back the memories
our memories
when we scold,joke,smile,angry
everything

he was like a best friend to me
an elder brother
a younger brother
someone i can talk to

we were like the closest
siblings ever
we were always helping each other
he sacrifices a lot for me

i never realise it till now
i don't know how to repay him
he said blajar btol2....

*sob*sob*