Hey.. So sorry did not update for so long. Anyways, just curious to ask this. Have u ever felt that you are always looked down upon everywhere u go? I mean, they didn't directly tell u that but, have u ever felt that u know they look down on u? Haiz.. That's kind of what i m feeling right now... Which sucks big time. Let me see, when i try to remember about my sec sch, the people who come to mind,who look down on me, are the teachers. Most of them. My phy, eng, history(she is a full-time bitch. I had to say it.) teacher. Even people around me. Friends, family, friends.. And i always try to find some motivations for me to continue living. Argh.. I'm almost reaching the depressed mode. Sometimes, i feel like crying and screaming my lungs out. But there are ni tears. No sound would come out of my mouth. The only time that i cried the first time this year was when i got home from sch. It was after my chem test. Which i know i screwed up. So i felt horrible and could not focus on my lesson. Even my bitch teacher noticed. Cos when the class was laughing. I was not. Perhaps my mind was somewhere else.